if God’s not all in my actions, He can’t be all in my head.
Listen to “All In My Head”
well i’ve got this friend
who’s got it all together
he tells me there’s only one thing
that will ever last forever
“go ahead and try and make your mark”
the whole worlds flammable
and you carry a spark
when i tell my friend i’m not praying for fame
he just smiles and says you must be insane
naw, you just need to take a closer look
to see your place in the history books
he tries to tell me
that God’s all in my head
but my head’s full of selfishness instead
God’s not all in my heart
God’s not all out on my tongue
so don’t tell me God’s all in my head
well i leave my friend
and I go out for a drive
and the billboards i read
say, “man you’re lucky to be alive”
cause with the smoke you’re breathing
just with your windows rolled down
don’t you think it’s time you left this town?
but i respond to myself
i know why i’m here
god has a plan for me
don’t whisper in my ear
you can take a backseat
oh you doubt
or i’ll throw you out
December 31st, 1998
during the forest fires in Mexico, May of ‘97 – aggieland was
blanketed in a dark heavy fog – driving home one day i noticed
the sun looked very much like a full moon.
i put the image along with my recent realization
that God is focused on lil’ ol me
Listen to “A Small God”
passion burns
in the land to the south
and the smoke is chokin’ me dead
it rolled into town
just yesterday
and found a home in my head
this thick blanket
keeps me warm
but it’s the middle of june
so i’m kickin’ it off
to greet the dawn
but the sun looks more like the moon
i know that my God is big enough to fear
but how can He be small enough to hear
that i’m needing some change to change my mind
cause i’m thinking of leaving it all behind
and i’m lying when i say that i’m just fine
armies with no flags
are massing at my borders
i’m fighting an unseen war for law and order
i don’t need to know their homes
to know what they want with me
i offer as a living sacrifice to the God I also cannot see
i know that my God is big enough to fear
but how can He be small enough to hear
that i’m needing some peace to peace my mind
and i’m thinking of leaving it all behind
and i’m lying when i say that i’m just fine
May 31st, 1997
