she finally found a reason to dig out her magazines
every scrap that she has saved since she turned 14
now the last 10 years are narrowed to 10 days
to put a check by the only plan she’s made

all her friends are coming so i guess i won’t be there
i still think i love her; not enough to show i care
i won’t see the dress or have to shake his hand
i won’t kiss her cheek, leave her lips for another man

she’ll end up unhappy
in some run down trailer park
and i will be the memory
she clings to in the dark

the articles she’s read tell her how to love
he says he’ll stay even when push comes to shove
if he lays a hand on her i hope she runs away
my door is always open – if she wanted she could stay

but for now she’s gonna
find a borrowed blue
and tell herself her dreams are coming true

not tonight,not tonight!
please GOD not tonight!
i’m so scared, i’m so tired
i won’t put up a fight
i will dream of hopelessness

i’m tortured, i’m tortured!
these thoughts, they are true
if only i could call in a rescure
where would that leave me then?

right now, right now
they’re in love, they are wed
right now she’s crawling into his bed
oh save me FROM MY OWN MIND!

these nightmares
i know they are real
i’m so sorry i know
this is not how i should feel
but i’ll never see the promised land.

i’m so sorry, so sorry
i’ll never do it again
that’s a lie, you and i
both know this is not the end
the end of hopelessness

right now, right now
God, i hate imagination
can’t You send a distraction?
because I…

I’ve suffered enough
yes, i know i was wrong
i hoped and i believed
and lost it all
i lost it all tonight

it’s not that i still need her
it’s just that i see
all this time i’ve wasted
so foolishly
and now where can i get away?

i wish her the best
at least better than me
right now i wish
i could get some sleep
without thinking
he’s making her so happy

i haven’t seen snow in texas in ten years
but this winter seems cold enough without you here
i don’t know why you have to get married
during the holidays

’cause i gave you my valentine’s
and my 4th of july
now you’ll spend christmas
with some other guy

i guess i really saw this coming, i know
i always thought you fall for me like
texas snow….eventually
i don’t know why you think that guy
can give what i cannot

’cause i gave you my valentine’s
and my 4th of july
now you’ll spend christmas
with some other guy

watch the water claim the valley
hear all the rainmaker’s brag
we finally got what we asked for
now we can’t give it back

like a scar on young skin
we will pay for our mistakes
thunder rumbles
as the last time crumbles

nature is more thief than giver
another town joins the river

i made you cry
we said goodbye
i feel sick inside
cause i break you down
he fixes your frown
i need some place to hide

i send you to his shoulder
because i love you so
i tell you when you’re wrong
i think that you should know
but i’m sorry…don’t go.

he wipes your tears
he calms your fears
you trust beyond your doubt
that he is your man
but you understand
everything i’m talking about

kiss me, my darling, before i go
my flight leaves at 8 am
i’ll see you when i get home
i’ll call you from the west coast

and when i say i love you
it’s for always
starting today

hey there, it’s me, from the air
i just called to say…i miss you
i’ll hope that you will be….

happy.

so kiss me, my darling, before i go

i’m struck by the beauty i now see in you
i’ve long ignored the red white and blue
has someone switched you in the night?
i see you new by the dawn’s early light

rubble and reasons that do not stand
life slips out of a grasping hand
planes that turn and terrorize
dry are empty, tearless eyes

we will rebuild
a peace taken by fear
we will rebuild
and we’re still here

under your colors that wave in the wind
we fight in a war we did not begin
a spotlight to shadows, darkness will flee
we bury the brave and we rally the free

over our shoulder we carry you on
we raise you high, plant you on lawns
our sorrow is strong, but so are you
the beautiful red, the white, the blue

Listen to “911″

tangible shadows
a reason to fear
out of the darkness
evil is here

hope holds a picture
we don’t seek to find
but bring to life
the death on our minds

how long will you tarry, Lord?
how long till you carry us home?
my soul cries to You…for rescue

dust in our lungs
but what shall we scream
wake in a nightmare
fresh from a dream

sunshine escapes us
it must look away
while we survivors
must stay

i’m not a strong man
when i push down
get up again

but the hardest thing
is seeing you smile through
tears of my intent

are you ok?
i did not mean it
i’m sorry

please won’t you stay?
i’d quit betting on me…

here are scars from fights we’ve won
here are scars from nights i’ve run
but head me off at the pass

i’m a rat born into a maze
i don’t know any other way

don’t question the walls
or the end of my days
i can’t see anything but yesterday

the ground will shake beneath my feet
the nations will fall in flames

but cover me up in your promises
and tell me again how you know my name

here are scars from fights we’ve won
here are scars from nights i’ve run
but head me off at the pass

i’ve got so much i want to say to you
but the words all spill out of order
put a hand on my shoulder
You know…

48 hours grows me up
you swallowed me and threw me up
’cause somebody better came along
and i wonder what went wrong

i would have been just friends with you
i would have done what you asked me to
i’m so used to being used, but with you
it felt so new

you said you never wanted to hurt me
you said it would break your heart
to up and go and leave me alone
how well you knew your part

did you lie when you said you’d cry
if you ever took advantage of me
even i can see through tears in my eyes
you’ve never been so happy

i’m mad at myself for letting you
do just what you warned you would do
and i’m mad at you for saying things
that evidently were not true