i can’t be smart and i can’t be smooth
i can’t see me from your point of view
i’m only me and i’m afraid
i’m not the man God meant when He made

all this skin and sadness and a heart i just can’t find
i lost it to a girl i can’t get off my mind

He says He loves me, i don’t know why
He says it doesn’t matter how hard i try
i’m only me, i’ll never be more
He says just to drop His name at the door

so she may not love me
but i think i’ll be ok
i’m gonna let her go
till she’s the one that got away

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when everything is noise
clatter crashing on the floor
when i can’t stand the voices
i’ve never needed you more

will you be still
when everything is spinning?
will you be still
when everything is changing?

but every night the dreams return
like the flame that always burn
i can’t spend my life just standing by
afraid of trusting an obvious lie

maybe i can make it
i won’t know until i try
this is my chance i’ll take it
and i won’t trust my eyes

maybe i can make it

from here i don’t know which way to go
but if i stop i’ll never know
the closer i get, the clearer the way
i won’t stop in the shade

i must walk this path alone
i cannot get there on my own
i need some hope to hold on to
so i make my way to you

i’m out for proof that you still care
i’d settle for knowing that you’re there
i wish you’d send a sign
i don’t want to doubt you

so i guess my faith is so weak
i must beg you to speak
all you offer me are words
i’ve never really heard you

if you’re everything they say you are
you know the secrets of my heart
the things i mean but cannot say
thank God you never run away

am i too smart to believe
you’re a possibility?
are my eyes so blind to see
what you’ve done for me?

if you made me i’d obey
i would be a fearful slave
but i’d never choose to
love you

am i led into the desert
or do i go there on my own?

do i have to swing so hard
to get water from a stone

i can’t see a burning bush
i can’t see your signs
i wish you’d come and tell me
something that i can’t deny

say you love me
tell me i’m beautiful
say you love me
tell me i’m beautiful
tell me i’m worth it.

i would sit right by the fire
they’d ask me and i would deny

and i’d stand back in the corner
till i put a finger in your side

but nothing around here
reminds me of You
taking a scapel to myths
i wanted to be true

but i won’t sing those songs
unless i mean amazing grace
but more than your voice
i want You to put me in my place

i’m thirsty, Lord
give me a taste (of the reason for pain) i’ll go on again
i’m thirsty, Lord
lift up my chin in this rain

i’ve heard it said before
thinking men get nothing done
when i finally find the will to fight
i find the enemies won

but i survive, and they look down
i’m all wrapped up in my hypocrisy
forgive me for falling so far
and taking Your name down with me

thank You for the drought
You knew a flood would have me think
that i deserve these gifts
when i’m just begging for a drink

heaven, i’m hiding in the garden
ashamed of what i’ve given away
i’m only a slave to strong emotion
crouching in the darkness of day

drag me out to face You
for sins i can’t deny
but You call me, You invite me
You let me choose to lie

overtake me and break me
put me together again
overtake me and break me
put me together again

heaven, i’d running far from you
chasing the desires of my heart
i’m afraid that all the plans i made
won’t save me when we’re apart

i’ve come to think that it’s my way
to chase the passion calling me
but it’s you who’s whispering my name
relentlessly

i stake my story on rumor of chance
if i am wrong i will fall and all break
for i know i’m ill equipped for romance
some guys don’t have what it takes

if every know that’s screamed in my ear
proves out to be the obvious plan
i’ll cradle the dream that i never did hear
i chose a lie and you chose another man

but david’s stone took goliath down
a bloody jawbone saved samson’s life
a baby boy wore heaven’s crown
so i hope you’ll be my wife

God is the God of what’s best for me
has He given me sight to see that it’s you?
or do i desire fruit from a tree
a dream best left untrue?

i write this like a man unguarded
drawn to danger, left to die
they say i’ll end up broken hearted
but for the sake of love i try

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they say you’re on the way
they say you’re near
it’s your first day
of your first year

we’ve been waiting
to watch you grow
to see you testing out your fingers
and curl those tiny toes

we’ll feed you and clothe you
and send you to school
we’ll fix your scraped knees
and your bicycle too
until you can wallk
we’ll carry you

so start a new story
this is chapter one
just imagine the work
that God’s begun

how far will you travel
where will you stay?
follow God where He leads you
you’ll be ok

he’ll guide you, beside you
he’ll be your rescue
he’ll fix broken hearts
if you only ask him to
and when it’s just to hard to walk
he’ll carry you

if i climbed to the highest
would you know my name
if i hid in the lowest
would you still see my shame?

if i cry cause i’m lonely
would you send a friend
if i tell her goodbye
will i see her again?

why waste my wonder
on the skies i live under
cause You’re tryin’ to teach
let go of what is out of Your reach

if i walked in the fire
could you cool the flames
if i fell to the lions
would you make them tame?

if i follow my heart
will it be my guide
if i fell from the path
will you know that i tried

if i walked away
would you not give chase
if i was lost in the would
could i find your grace

if i could step from this land
and shake off the dust
if i could wake in a dream
i would still need You, Jesus