fair to her

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is it fair to her if i’m just killing time until you’re mine?
is it fair to her if i’m just holding on until you’re gone?
but i won’t break her just to fix myself
what if she is the one?

i know you’re not, but you could be

Add comment May 1st, 2006

weak reflection

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is this some weak relfection of how God feels
longing for a love that doesn’t leap into my arms
i try to be the one she wants but it’s up to her to see
i’m here to hold her and keep her safe from harm

she likes some parts of me but she wants to play the field
how long will she look until she finds me waiting here?
maybe never. what if she is fooled by something else?
she runs to me for help but feels up and disappears

God are you chasing me the way i chase the girl?
thinking of me and wishing i would realize
everything i’m looking for, you’re so eager to give
i love her. i love her, but she must decide…

is this some weak reflection of how God feels?
longing for a love that doesn’t leap into my arms…

Add comment March 8th, 2006

beggars and choosers

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if beggars can’t be choosers
how can i let you go?
i’ve never heard a yes but i’m
so quick to tell you no

for what? just a shadow i chase
a fantasy i’ve seen on tv
i’m starving but i’m passing on
what you put in front of me

i’m sorry maybe more than i know
but i’ve got to see where this road ends
so hate me if you have to
but i’m just gonna be your friend

Add comment September 1st, 2005

woke up

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you got drunk again last night
there was no one there to stop you
you danced for all the boys
because they dared you to

i’m ashamed that i was there
but i was so afraid
i convinced myself that they
were your mistakes to make

but i wonder where you woke up…

Add comment April 8th, 2005

the best thing

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i could tell you that i’ve never desired you
but then i couldn’t say i’ve never lied to you
i do not dream that we’ll end up together
i just don’t like the sound of never

i’m happy for you believe me that’s true
i smiled when i first heard
it’s hard to explain the way i feel
but i know how i should act

like it’s the best thing
the best thing
i should say it’s the best thing
that has ever happened…
to you.

i’m not angry, i’m not depressed
i just see you in your white dress
and something, somewhere misses you
the one i got too close to

i’m jealous of love in any form
i don’t want you, but what you have
of course you tell me “someday”
and of course i don’t believe you

Add comment June 1st, 2004