the hiss of a drowning fire

listen to the mp3

she finally found a reason to dig out her magazines
every scrap that she has saved since she turned 14
now the last 10 years are narrowed to 10 days
to put a check by the only plan she’s made

all her friends are coming so i guess i won’t be there
i still think i love her; not enough to show i care
i won’t see the dress or have to shake his hand
i won’t kiss her cheek, leave her lips for another man

she’ll end up unhappy
in some run down trailer park
and i will be the memory
she clings to in the dark

the articles she’s read tell her how to love
he says he’ll stay even when push comes to shove
if he lays a hand on her i hope she runs away
my door is always open – if she wanted she could stay

but for now she’s gonna
find a borrowed blue
and tell herself her dreams are coming true

Add comment January 8th, 2003

noah

listen to the mp3

i’m noah
except it never did rain
i wasted my time on the ark
locked inside it everyday
i only hope when the sky goes dark
friends say i’m not helping anything
by refrusing to move on
but i lose more than a girl
if i admit that i was wrong

and hope does not get weaker when it should
and love is never fair
all the time i spent building this
disappears into dry air

could i find a reason to hate her?
blame for a broken heart
no, she never did anything to me
and i think that’s the worst part

Add comment January 3rd, 2003

letters

listen to the mp3
you believed in happy endings
all the movies say it’s true
and once upon a time
she’ll fall in love with you

you never were the one she wanted
you tried to be someone she’d need
you wrote the perfect letters
you realize now she’ll never read

what will you write about now?
there’s nothing left for you
hope is nowhere to be found
all the movies said
won’t come true.

Add comment January 2nd, 2003

wedding

i won’t be at your wedding
but i’ll be giving you away
he’ll carry you off
this saturday

i wanted to be like him
no i just wished that he was me
i asked you for forever
i’ll settle for a history

you said if i really loved you
i’d let you go be happy

so you’ll walk slowly down the aisle
clutching a bright blue bouquet
and you won’t even notice me gone
the man giving you away

Add comment December 8th, 2002

i was wrong

listen to the mp3

i heard you’re getting married
you don’t want me to know
i heard you’re getting married
you don’t want me to go

’cause you think that i still love you
so afraid of what i’ll say
yeah you know that i still love you
so it’s best i stay away

but i won’t make this long
i’ll just say i was wrong
when i said we were meant to be

i’m sorry.

Add comment December 2nd, 2002