a girl

Listen to “A Girl”

dammit
she’s a girl
just a girl
not a pill to make my problems go away
not a destiny to make my credits roll
a girl
with her own issues and desires and dreams
more apart from me
than i’d admit to myself
she’s not what i look for her to be
because i’m looking for fiction
and she’s just a girl

Add comment May 1st, 2006

smart and smooth

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i can’t be smart and i can’t be smooth
i can’t see me from your point of view
i’m only me and i’m afraid
i’m not the man God meant when He made

all this skin and sadness and a heart i just can’t find
i lost it to a girl i can’t get off my mind

He says He loves me, i don’t know why
He says it doesn’t matter how hard i try
i’m only me, i’ll never be more
He says just to drop His name at the door

so she may not love me
but i think i’ll be ok
i’m gonna let her go
till she’s the one that got away

Add comment February 7th, 2006

the best thing

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i could tell you that i’ve never desired you
but then i couldn’t say i’ve never lied to you
i do not dream that we’ll end up together
i just don’t like the sound of never

i’m happy for you believe me that’s true
i smiled when i first heard
it’s hard to explain the way i feel
but i know how i should act

like it’s the best thing
the best thing
i should say it’s the best thing
that has ever happened…
to you.

i’m not angry, i’m not depressed
i just see you in your white dress
and something, somewhere misses you
the one i got too close to

i’m jealous of love in any form
i don’t want you, but what you have
of course you tell me “someday”
and of course i don’t believe you

Add comment June 1st, 2004

people move on

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i think of the women whom i have loved
i am too quick with that word
i left my heart on the doorstep
like a rumor they’d already heard

who is to blame when things don’t stay the same?
people move on, they get cold
i can’t forget smiling faces
joy once was so bold

i’m praying i’ll forget the way
it seemed so right just yesterday
i had something, but now it’s gone
people move on

i think the one who loved me
no, i guess she never did
she was not shy in saying it though
i still bleed wounds from cupid

i think of the reasons i wanted her
i wonder why she was my wish
when all the world is leaving
she is the only thing that i miss

Add comment August 4th, 2003

playing fair

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i’ve got a deal made with a brick wall
i won’t try to climb it and it won’t let me fall
it’s a sad life lived in yesterdays
and i’m too stupid to walk away

but if i treat you like you treat me
you’d surely leave me lonely
you say i’ve changed
’cause i don’t follow you everwhere
you think it’s strange
all of a sudden i don’t care

but i’m just playin’ fair

see i’ve done the stupid dances
just to keep you out on the floor
and i have the been the man
i don’t want to be anymore
if i did not chase you down
you would not wait around

Add comment May 4th, 2003